Well, well....look at me blogging two times in one week?!
Yes I think it's safe to say that I'm gettin' a little bit of routine back in my life.
Things feel as if they're falling more and more in to place small bit by small bit.
Things are good.
Friends, I'm happy.
I'm happy in a new way.
I'm happy in a different way.
I'm happy in a good way.
It's good.
I wish I could share with you the feeling that my heart feels when I think about the place I'm in right now!
I'm sure as time goes on I'll be able to elaborate more on the term "happy" but right now it just equals the peace that my heart feels towards myself, my life and the future.
Really, it's all good!
That's kinda a big deal in my book considering the path I've been on these last few months.
Since this went down, I've challenged myself in so many ways that have all propelled me forward.
Once life threw me in a different direction, my instincts kicked in and picked my butt off the ground. I felt I could not sit around with a confused look on my face.
It was time to move.
Life was happening whether I sat on my butt or got up. Getting up was putting me in charge of putting together the life that I wanted to live.
So I stood, legs wobbly and slowly took step after step towards "something" I couldn't even see clearly.
I had to do this.
I learned that taking pit stops and asking myself "how you doin' today girl?" was ok and also ok to wait until I found the answer. I discovered the super woman "everything's fine" outlook was a load of crap. Once I did, I took the time to process what was going on, then picked back up and marched on.
All the while I've challenged myself to do the best I could to honor God, let love rule my thoughts and actions, keep my heart open, and to let myself learn the true meaning of forgiveness.
I don't know if I'll ever stop giving the disclaimer of "I wasn't perfect" because of course I wasn't.
Challenging myself to walk through this journey in a way that I was proud of and that honors God, has caused me to learn, and grow in ways that have been crazy hard but so, sooo amazing.
It's changed me.
The combination of
must move forward + God + Love = Peace and Progress
I know that I haven't reached the end of this road. I'm still walking on it, but it's really changed lately.
I don't feel like I'm stumbling, sad or scared.
I feel like I've started to skip. I'm twirling!
I'm comfortable on this road because I have total peace it's going to lead me in an amazing new directions.
I'm looking around at my new scenery now. I'm enjoying this new road.
The upcoming forks and passages that are up ahead are filled with so many new adventures, and I'm in charge of where I'll turn, what I want and where I'm going. It's really, really exciting!
So, I'm good friends! I don't expect that I won't hit another rain storm or some bad weather as I continue on this road. I'm realistic, but I know how my heart feels. I know the excitement I feel towards what God's got lined up for me! It's pretty good friends, pretty good!!